so angsty tsk.

feeling old for the very first time!

2008-04-12T00:39:00.008+08:00

i feel estatic today! because dawei actually meant to play the guitar and sing! but i'd been a kind soul by saving him from all the embarrassment tsk. he's exceptionally sweet today (more like he's damn mean on any other day) okay, at least he sorta had the intention of letting me beat him in arm wrestling. my friends are extremely sweet! thanks bx for the super sweet letter and the box of strawberry pocky with milo stains, pecky for the filpflops, suwen for the cake which i'd seen by accident yesterday haha, thanks cindy and derniese for the hugs! thanks goc for organising tomorrow's outing, sixseven (plus some others) for singing the birthday song for me, thanks to all my friends who messaged me at twelve. im happy too because coach sang to me the first line of the birthday song! and jiaolian said he's going to give me a five-cent coin tomorrow;) im looking forward to tomorrow's picnic, and i feel like cycling to casuarina right now but my eyelids are already draping over my eyeballs:/

2008-03-13T23:49:00.004+08:00

WHY do you even bother to come back and take my pain away when i'm asleep

even freons have their uses

2008-03-13T00:08:00.005+08:00

i see thousands of smileys, except that they're not smiling

im so exhausted i need a rest
so where are you

things cant get any bleaker

2008-03-11T20:07:00.003+08:00

seeing the same old lines has never got me so glad

i want to mean what i say,

2008-03-08T00:48:00.007+08:00

its like having built a sandcastle that you all along thought was strong and sturdy then you look away for a second it all gets washed away. you try very hard to scoop the sand back with your bare hands but they flow right through your fingers and that was exactly the time you found out that your spade was bobbing on the waves.

it has never felt so hard i want to stop and run away
who is there to catch me and place me back on track
shes long gone i know

my dear, put out the fire of thoughts and dont let it rekindle

2008-01-07T17:25:00.004+08:00

today's physics tutorial was ownage. havent had such enlightenment for a damn loooooooong while. i cant believe we've actually survived with self-studying for one whole year. aqs. more aqs please, to rob me of my sleep. this reminds me of the lyrics, 'i dont wanna sleep tonight, dreaming's just a waste of time.' but i dont think so, because dreaming is the only means of seeing you. and, i cant remember the taste of the fried rice anymore! i miss having meals at the round table, with you on my left. the past year had gone so hastily that it seemed so short, but it's not short enough for me to remember the feeling of togetherness:(

2007-10-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

i could just turn into a puddle of water.

i would.

2007-10-01T20:42:00.001+08:00

maybe one day, i'd fly the paper plane away. the one that says, "i want to be there for you when you're feeling down, to wipe your tears away and make you smile again."

gwen stefani - the sweet escape

2007-08-12T03:38:00.000+08:00

if i could escape
and re-create a place as my own world
and i could be your favorite girl
forever, perfectly together
and tell me boy, now wouldn't that be sweet?

indeed. (:

SPONGEBOB!

2007-08-12T02:53:00.000+08:00

spongebob: well, we've lost our car again.
patrick: never mind the car, where's the road?

now that we're men
we can do anything
now that we're men
we are invincible
now that we're men
we'll go to shell city
get the crown
save the town and mr krabs

now that we're men
we have facial hair
now that we're men
i change my underwear
now that we're men
we got a manly flair
we got the stuff
we're tough enough to save the day!

I LOVE SPONGEBOB (:

2007-08-08T16:17:00.001+08:00

i'm so tired of walking, and there's no one to catch me when i fall.

2007-07-29T00:31:00.001+08:00

i could be right beside you now.

togetherness

2007-07-25T23:23:00.002+08:00

i remember, standing right outside the video shop watching spongebob squarepants the movie which was showing on the tv.

as the distance of time lenghtens, i view these images not as vivid as before. and once they go beyond reach, i'd find that they no longer belong to me.

2007-07-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

when you go, would you even turn to say, "i don't love you like i did yesterday."

it seems so gloomy these days; the bleakness just doesnt cease to magnify itself.

you could be happy

2007-07-16T00:27:00.001+08:00

more than anything i want to see you girl
take a glorious bite out of the whole world

weird thoughts-

2007-07-14T23:25:00.000+08:00

i'm spinning like a top at top speed;
its not that i'm on the top of the world,
i'm just feeling dizzy at the high altitudes.

nutella :)

2007-07-12T00:04:00.001+08:00

oh, right.
we did nothing like what we said yesterday. nonetheless, i finished six questions of tutorial 6b gosh!

as i sat there, munching on the gardenia bread with thick nutella spread, i recall the day when we made pasta together. it was more like strands of spaghetti swimming in watery cream sauce with pathetic little bits of mushrooms. that weeny amount of dough sure wasnt enough to fill our bellies. so we retired from the kitchen to the dining table, spreading piece after piece of wholemeal bread with nutella.

that damned asshole hahaha

2007-07-09T01:48:00.003+08:00

i know you are watching. and here, i'm telling you that i've made it to where you once told me that i'm not capable of. i've proved you wrong. you are just a pathetic deeeesgusting old man

no red line for today.

2007-07-05T23:07:00.002+08:00

today is the fifth and i didnt take the red line.

awwwwwwwwwwww

2007-07-04T02:20:00.003+08:00

cedar is such a nice school to be in. i missed everything about it. there's our court, our corridor, our basketball toilet. i went to change in my favourite cubicle and my hands naturally went up to my neck, to try loosening my tie. but it was then i realised i wasnt wearing one.

i miss cedar!

today is NOT sunday!

2007-06-30T17:18:00.001+08:00

this morning i woke up at 9.50 when i was supposed to give tuition at 10. i apologised for being late and started going through math and science. when it was five minutes to the end of session, i asked when he wanted his next lesson to be while giving him homework. so he said, "how about monday?"

"isnt that tomorrow?"
"today is saturday."

OH MY GOODNESS.
i feel so cheated.

Let There Be Love - Oasis

2007-06-10T22:05:00.000+08:00

who kicked a hole in the sky
so the heavens will cry over me
who stole the soul from the sun
and the world come undone at the seams
let there be love
let there be love

i hope the weather is calm
as you sail up your heavenly stream
suspended clear in the sky
are the words that we sing in our dreams
let there be love x4

come on baby blue
shake up your tired eyes
the world is waiting for you
may all your dreaming fill the empty sky
but if it makes you happy
keep on clapping
just remember I'll be by your side
and if you don't let go
it's gonna pass you by

who kicked a hole in the sky
so the heavens will cry over me
who stole the soul from the sun
and the world come undone at the seams
let there be love

madness

2007-06-05T22:16:00.001+08:00

why have things become like this................i've had enough of people making empty promises, and also the consistent bugging about how lousy i am. its not that i dont want to; i've tried but things are just not as easy as we think.

things are getting sadder each day perhaps one day i can bang my head against the wall or jump off a building. well...................

the eye candy

2007-06-03T20:42:00.004+08:00

there was once pecky and i called andy 'andy the candy' because it rhymes. and andy said, "that's right, andy the eye candy." i can roll my eyes 360degrees and here's my favourite-quote-of-the-day:

you'd feel breathless standing next to andy, cause he'd be breathing in all the oxygen around you.

i want it back.

2007-05-31T01:10:00.003+08:00

i lost my shoebag! mannnn how can i even forget to bring it home! i was told that it might be buried somewhere in that mountain of junk which is, so gross. i dont wanna lose my precious shoebag...........oh no, its the nicest shoebag ever:( if only some brave and kind soul would dig it out for me. awwwww man, this is so devastating! i wished it was stolen by some desperate kid who needed a pair of track shoes badly. i wouldnt mind losing the shoes but, sigh!

2007-04-07T17:34:00.002+08:00

training was madd today. we did crazy drills and ran the 6th avenue route after that. i liked it though, at least it wasnt 9-11-13, or 13-15-17! hurrrrrr i'd rather run two rounds of the 6th avenue route than to sprint 13-15-17. i am absolutely serious.

chickensss

2007-03-29T00:24:00.001+08:00

today i ~~meng~~ ate loads of chicken meat. we went to 6th avenue for lunch before training. instead of a proper meal, i got a pastry and a honey glazed chicken steak because i didnt feel like eating too much. at the end, i think i'd have been less full if i'd gotten 'real' food because the chicken was so ~~imba~~ huge.

dinner was rice with veggies and eggs and some chicken dish. woah. chicken nugget i am bloody sick of chickens